Being told my contract wouldn't be renewed hit me like a bat made of dicks, but at the same time I didn't brood over it either. I just walked away from my stuttering moron of a coteacher and started lining up my employment documents for the impending shittyness of job search hell. In the next two days, I sent out about 30 job applications to hagwons and recruiters. Within a week, I'd exhausted all of the English job ads in Busan on every main website. Between my 1 year of experience, my shitty online TEFL certification (A lot of NETs don't even have that), and my residence in Busan, I figured I'd be heads and shoulders above 90% of the competition.
I got one response for every dozen or so emails I sent out. It wasn't long before I started looking at jobs in Taiwan, Thailand, even Alberta. My declining morale was started to show through in my interactions with recruiters:
What irritated me the most is that these same recruiters that weren't responding to me were re-posting the same open positions every day. Some of them did explicitly state, “Females Only”, contrasting the acceptability of gender vs. racial discrimination. But the preferences of hagwons for young, white women are openly discussed amongst recruiters, and their preferences are only a reflection of those of Korean parents, whose satisfaction is the priority of hagwons.
I hate this type of cowardly, shriveled-dick discrimination the most. It wastes everybody's time, and nobody's fooled. My take on racism is the same as my take on character in general. If you're going to have an opinion, make it one that you aren't ashamed of. Be proud of your racism, or don't be racist. It's got nothing to do with going all-out vs half-assing it. It's about being comfortable with yourself and being someone you don't hate. All these hagwons put the white pussy on a pedestal and strive to be the most nigger-hatingest institutions since country clubs, but they're ashamed of it. I'll throw a salute and shed a patronizing tear for the first hagwon I see that has enough balls to advertise openings for WHITES ONLY.
I only have one offer right now; a public school position.
I'd be teaching at two schools 15 minutes away from each other up near Seoul with awful weather.
I don't know how I feel about teaching at two schools, but I do know how I feel about being 4 hours north of Busan. If I move here, I'm going to get really good at guitar and jacking off- even better than I've become since getting my current job. I'll become the best that ever was.
Fuck Hagwons and fuck anybody else that puts white pussy on a pedestal.