What started out as my exploration of an age-old question: whether total nerds have a chance at snagging highly desired women ripples into a topic that permeates into a thorough exploration of everything regarding the enigma we call 'love' and how it may not be as magical as we first deem it to be.
Reupdate: 3/14/13 Didn't really mean to update on Valentine's Day but there we go. I rescind my 51/49 soul/body split I mentioned in the 3/13 update after responding to Zach's post on Sebastian Marshall's blog http://sebastianmarshall.com/dont-underestimate-biochemistry. I now believe it is a dynamic split that changes based on situation.
Update: 3/13/13 In yet another update of this post's evolution the original question has been staked in the heart by Tynan's latest post Not that kind of person. I am now more convinced than ever that there are no 'pre-sets' in life and the only barriers we put up are the ones of our own making. Not everyone starts on even-footing and some have advantages over others but in the long run for most things we are self-defined. For the longest time I've tackled a deeper philosophical question - is the body a victim of biological processes or are biological processes controlled by the body? (ie can we use willpower alone to induce biological change) Are human personalities just a sum of biochemical reactions or is the human persona a product of the 'soul'? I now believe that we have a lot more power than we give ourselves credit for and even though our bodies and higher aspects (mind/soul) may often conflict with one another ultimately the higher aspects are in control.
Admittedly hormones and such play a big role in our day to day feel/function and have enough weight to throw us off course . Starting out I think we may be a 51/49 split of mind over matter but with self discipline and proper care of the human vessel in my experience that ratio only goes up to pass more control to the higher self.
Update: 9/6/12 Figure I'd clean this up and add in a shortcut to help anyone trapped in the loop of pining for women - most of what is considered "love" doesn't exist just sex. Read the end of this post for the explanation why. Otherwise original post below...
Seems to be alot of world travellers around here. How do you all find the best rates for flights? I don't fly out much if at all so I just hop on one of the flight search engines and see what comes out. I always thought this was optimal until I joined the Virgin America Elevate club and suddenly I'm inundated with offers for flights with lower prices than what I can find on the search engines.
I did a bit of research and a lot of people claim that flight search engines only give out lowest advertised prices - and not the lowest price the airline is truly willing to give out. Given that how do you get the "real deals" for flights? I may need to leave the country in approx. 1 or 2 weeks and given that timeframe it looks like a lot of flights are in the high range. After my Virgin America experience it seems like airlines reward loyal customers - should I place all my eggs in one basket or is there a better way to get good deals?
I've been stalking the TSLA (Tesla) stock charts lately waiting to put in my bigger stake of $5,000. I kept waiting though - when it was 44 - 46 - 48 - 50 - 52 - 56 - 54... I blamed my fear for my indecisiveness as the numbers escalated - waiting for a dip back to 38 which would not happen in the last 2 weeks. My logic said I can't predict the future and urged caution - yet - I did not know whether it was fear or logic pulling the cords now.
Whenever I have a situation like this I do the one thing that separates the wheat from the chaff - taking a small action similar to the bigger one I want to take. I opened up my WellsTrade brokerage account and put in a 300$ buy order for TSLA stock at 51$. Right as I did that and pressed confirm I felt a familiar sense of doom run thru my gut. Logically I've gone thru the homework. Tesla is very likely about to put out a very optimistic earning report on May 6th and given the huge amount of people shorting the stock I stand to make a nice chunk of change when the short squeeze happens. The pessimists will be forced to cover their position by buying more stock and driving it higher and they make up 40% of the stock outstanding atm. It's almost a sure moneymaker at this point - so why didn't I go all in on it?
No matter how much due diligence I try to add to the situation I can't convince myself enough that the stock market is worth learning to make money from. The chances of losing it ALL on Tesla overnight are slim to none - and I am prepared to lose my initial 500$ stake from a month ago. Overall I still can't shake the feeling of dread though. I guess it's just not my thing. I cannot shake the feeling I could've spent all that time reading assessments and articles and Tesla news on something productive. Hell even something entertaining to decompress may have even be worth more than the paltry 40$ I stand to make if the buy order goes thru and the stock surges another 10$ like last week. 40$ I will make by spending 2-3 hours researching Tesla for a paltry return of 13$/hr approx.
Somewhere out there on the floating rock someone just like me is putting down 10,000$ on Tesla now and will make probably make $1,800 profit by next weeks end on the short squeeze and small speculative bubble being generated on the stock at the moment. And they will be the better off for it financially. And I will know I may have just thrown away another small risk high return situation. Nevertheless I cannot deny that internally I just feel like it's not my thing.
Maybe feelings are meant to be discarded? I've always liked a mix of logic and emotional congruence behind the decisions I make. Some people even say feelings are valueless but from my new age phase they are the gateway into the realms logic cannot reach. There are things people know and have known without the use of derivative logic. The same phenomenon though is used to fuel self-sealing arguments all over the world each day. Would I be better off if I were just an unfeeling beast - the pinnacle of masculinity? Maybe in the material sense - yes - but once again - reflecting on that - it's just not my thing.
I'm usually one for long philosophically introspective and somewhat ranting posts but I'll keep things simple this time. Why don't we get a bunch of people in the SF Bay Area together and create our own resident owned mobile home park? We will have affordable housing + own the land underneath us. If we can get enough people together we can force create a community to keep out crime and unwanteds. Who's in? They have Senior +55 and whatever parks - why not have young professional and midlife crisis parks? Affordable living without the fascist control in desirable areas which have employment.
Oh yes and the houses will also come with fast wired internet connections as standard issue. Upward mobility needs to come back to these expensive areas! We can minimize cost by keeping the homes small and subsequently the size of the lots small.
As a last resort maybe we can buy out a condo but I am against this as the more people share anything the more fascist it becomes. There are plenty of condos with varying rules already. This one is for the individualists - time for us to make our stand!!!
I wonder sometimes why we do things that guarantee failure even when we see the warning signs all around us? Are we as humans meant to fail? If so, are we meant to fail repeatedly? If so, for what purpose and what gain?
If anyone was attracted by the purty MS paint modded picture of stocks and commentary it is indeed in reference to Tesla stock (TSLA) and no - I did not short it (which I guess would have been a more epic failure :p). I'm vested 500$ into it and I've near doubled my investment now since it was at 38 a month or two back. What I'm reflecting on is why I logically saw all the signs that this stock value pop was coming and I intentionally set myself up to fail by not betting the farm $5k and making some easy cash.
Here's a brief recap of what has happened since my prediction for the stock on my blog post http://sett.com/thetinyoctopus/not-my-thing:
Another quick recap. I logically stated my predictions on my last blog post for why this stock would soon bubble up and they were all logically sound.
In an attempt to do some self-repair I decided to post a response to my own thoughts at http://sett.com/thetinyoctopus/do-we-sometimes-seek-failure. I'm kind of a two pronged person in that my human ego self and my insightful higher self constantly clash with each other. The lower self is more fun and volatile while the higher self is insightful and yeah maybe nothing more to say about em atm lol. Once I cooled down from beating myself up over missing out on an easy and effortless $1,800 I came up with an insight a couple hours later while sitting derp faced waiting for a flash drive to finish transferring files.
In the whole spiritual/law of attraction/personal development circles a certain philosophical question is often asked. "Why am I not getting what I want out of life?" A plausible answer that's often presented is, "...because you are not ready to handle it yet." Sounds like a bit of a troll but the more I delve into it the more I believe that this concept is true. This is because to be able to maintain certain levels of let's say wealth in your life you need to have a certain character and fortitude. One who is impulsive and uncontrollable often ends up poor because whatever money falls into their life becomes squandered instead of invested. I've read once that many lottery winners actually regret ever winning the lottery!!! I googled this up again and found this article which explains the point I made regarding that.
Many years ago me and some friends were walking thru a snow covered parking lot to the store to get supplies. Overhearing an odd conversation on the way in I decided to listen in out of curiosity. One of my friends remarked something along the lines of, "it'd be nice to be rich...". Another one of my friends quickly answered back, "You don't want to be rich. It's too much responsibility." At that moment something just clicked inside me as if I just heard some lost universal truth recently unearthed. It is true - being rich entails a LOT of responsibility. We often malign people who are richer than us but guess what - 90% of the time - they probably deserve every penny they get. They may have jobs that are rife with much more responsibility than yours. Often maligned doctors/lawyers have to cradle somebody's life in their hands 24/7. Owners of big companies and businesses are constantly having to manage their holdings lest a slip up brings them down or allows their competition to take over; this in turn forces layoffs which subsequently makes you responsible in a sense for their loss of stability. The richer you are the more things ride on your shoulders.
To be truly rich saving and being careful with your money is NOT enough. You need to be able to wisely invest your money as well as investing beats the slow doom of inflation while pumping money into the economy so more people can express the value they give to the world. I'm still very new to the investing scene - still in the fear-based mode of saving - so I would not make a very good money manager at this point I just realized. Invest in me? Lose about 3% per year due to inflation. On that thought maybe that was the 'doom' I felt when I was about to invest my money into the stock market. The doom of knowing that despite being able to make money I would not be able to handle it optimally. If someone dropped 3 million dollars on my doorstep tomorrow I'd like to think I'd invest in real estate and what not and make optimal choices but if I have indirectly mismanaged the amounts I have now then maybe the universe has not yet given it's blessing of trust for larger amounts to my care.
1 Round Egg (yes you can order the poached eggs at McDonalds seperately) 70 cents
2 Full Strips Bacon $1.20
1 Sausage McMuffin $1.00
1 Egg McMuffin $3.49
Kerrygold Grass Fed Butter (unsalted) about 3-4$ for a big rectangular chunk
I just need to get this off my back and out in the open. I made one of the worst trades in the history of mankind today on the stock market. This following me making a good ton of cash from TSLA shit talking because of some New York finance professor. TSLA popped down 6$ yesterday and popped back up the very next day netting me a nice gain from buying at 160 and selling at 166. I now stand to lose half to possibly ALL the profit I made from that one shit talking incident with TSLA depending on how the market goes tomorrow and how much faith I have in Apple stock (not much atm). Oh yeah my grand idea? Trading in Apple Computers during it's press conference to take advantages of the dips and bumps.
Now an illustration of our epic trade of the day... (if illustration doesn't show open the article up )
I don't know if my testosterone levels are back in surge but I felt particularly bold today trading AAPL while watching it's press release at the exact same time. I figured the emotions generated from features people liked or hated may overly exaggerate on the market's value. I drew a green line (above) which would be the variance midpoint. I'd buy when below that line and sell above it. I'd track the candlesticks and watch for inflections and trends. I thought it was too risky initially but as the day wore on somehow the Wells Fargo brokerage account opened up. Then as the day drew even longer the trading screen came up but I sat by idly watching. I had to go to the restroom. And then I come back and the price has plunged from 503 to 499.
Oh snaps time to buy!!!
Yep it's finally happened as many people predicted. Overconfidence and impulsiveness have rode me onto the arms of the bear. Apple tanked another 25$ overnight and I've lost ALL my profits from the previous day swing trading from Tesla save for 15$ (there's that lunch money I mentioned earlier...) All of this because I thought I could play Apple during it's overhyped press conference. It turns out I was the one who'd be getting played all the way down.
A quick recap of what's happened since my last blog post:
* After market trading shows AAPL down to 493 from 494 after market close. I have a stake at 499 with orders to sell at 503. Hoping an institution bites just long enough for me to get out without much of a loss.
* I sleep (somehow restfully! - playing some Garry's mod and looking at MTG cards before bed prolly helped)
Yep. Why you may ask? Isn't that a girlie porn book? A-he-he-he ::snicker::. Anyway, I want to better identify and distill the utter mess of what is termed 'effective male sexuality'. I've wrote numerous times about this in the past but this book will give me my first foray into 'practical' male sexuality that almost all women seem to find universally attractive. Despite the years that have gone by since pickup has first gone on the scene there is still a big divide between what women say they want (cultural programming?) and what they respond to (biology). Many men still grow up without old fashioned 'good man' masculine models to rely on as well because of America's inherent bias to politically correct feminism. There is a fine line that divides good men from oppressive men and I hope to turn those shades of grey into black and white. I hope thru synthesis of this work that I will be able to distill those shades mentioned earlier into easy to understand fundamental principles that better define practical male sexuality.
Will this book be the salvation of us all?
On a higher note, personally I honestly believe male sexuality has been suppressed by various forces (radical feminism, the media, sacred cow that 'men are bad', etc...) and because of this our society is falling apart as we men just can't get it up (sometimes quite literally with the worldwide falling T levels). It's kinda hard to have a family when the parents keep going their separate ways for whatever reason. No one seems to like each other anymore and all of America has taken on a very sexual short term gratification bias. Isn't there a better option to the mess we have now??? As for me personally I've kinda shelved the whole woman thing for about a year now but reading 50 shades and distilling the masculine from it would make an excellent capstone project imo to turn knowledge into deep knowledge. I hope to extract the goods that will help men everywhere both get what they want and restore the delicate balance that satisfies both men and women (not one at the expense of the other).