I feel like lately I've come to realize that I'm far too good at reading other's emotions and feelings, and yet masking my own. I am able to smile and say nothing is wrong, when really I mean to say so much. I stare at the wall and feel the tears behind my eyes but I'm able to sit upright and look fine. I am happy, yet I am not. I don't know what I want, I don't know what is missing. Yet somehow I feel so out of place. I feel like I get up and do what I have to, but don't feel any purpose. I feel like I've lost myself.
When is the age to stop just getting drunk and high all the time? I get sick of it. Its what you do when something feels missing. Its that rush, its the better-looking more confident version of ourselves. Its the part of us that reacts with recklessness to make up for the pain and stress. How do we love ourselves instead of ruin?
People love power, to have power you must have money.
We all love money, but spend money on love.
Would you go broke for love?
It all depends, is it the one you love or the thing you love.
What do you do when love destroys you?
Everyone has at some point in their life had an elder say: "Enjoy your time now because its going to go by fast. No one ever sees from their viewpoint at that time. But years down the road as I do now, I couldn't find that to be anymore true.
The older you get, the faster time seems to pass.
And it makes me question lots of things.
The type of person I have always been is the person who automatically looks ahead. I plan my life out years ahead from where it currently is and i've never been able to help that.
So when that time starts to be passing faster and faster and things I once looked forward to, seem to have already been done; what else is there? And i'm not trying to get into the matter of what is the meaning of life; because that's far too complex to even unravel my sole thoughts on the matter in one blog post..
"I wish I knew then what I know now: A man who really wants to be with you will find every reason to be with you. A man who does not want to be with you will find every excuse why he can’t be with you"-King
I am so proud of what you have came to be.
I am proud that you have followed your heart. Im so glad that you got up every time you were pushed down.
Every time someone doubted you, every time you felt as though you were the only one supporting yourself.
Every time that goal seemed impossible, and you continued to pursue it. Every time you sat in deep thought, letting negativity get to you..almost.