I woke up this morning and was in the happiest mood, ever. My daughter, Summer Copeland was excitedly kicking me in the stomach as her father was rubbing and kissing at my huge belly. She seems to have her favorite parent, though it seems. I'm not sure why I'm so happy but I'm sure she's the reason. I've never seen such beauty in having a little princess growing inside of me, and it brings me back to life more and more. She was definitely my cup of coffee this morning, and her father was too. I love them dearly and the precious moments we have. The laughter, jokes, and tokens of love that are shared among us are blessings. Summer is my Creative charm token. I wear her everywhere that I go. Mommy loves you, girl!
racism |ˈrāˌsizəm| noun
"The belief that all members of each race possess characteristics or abilities specific to that race, esp. so as to distinguish it as inferior or superior to another race or races.• prejudice, discrimination, or antagonism directed against someone of a different race based on the belief that one's own race is superior: a program to combat racism."
Why should I constantly be picked at, because of the color of my skin? These people hate us, because our pigment is a little darker than theirs, I mean get over yourself. I chose to blog about RACISM and the people who encourages it. Now, I'm almost six months pregnant with a little girl (African American) who is due in September 2014. It bothers me that I have to scroll through my Facebook Newsfeed and see ignorance and such, not just from one person but many others. I'm going to try and take a stab at this professionally, and not based off of emotions. So if you can't handle what is being talked about please state how you feel, so that I can reply back or just excuse yourself! Simple as that!
What is so wrong with today's generation? When I ask that question it's not just the youth but moreover the grown ass folks who have children. RACISM, it disgusts me so much that it makes me not even want to be apart of this world sometimes. Now, I give credit where it's due when a film is made and white people play their parts and things, but what's so wrong about an African-American person? Not all Black people or Niggers as a lot of you White folk refer to us as, are bad and make society hate us.
You make me question myself as a person, and I realize that isn't healthy. Giving you my all even when I had nothing but still you treat me like nothing. Too many times you've talked to me any kind of way, as if I don't try to take action and make a way. Out of a job for almost seven months now and I'm desperate to make a living. All you do is put in my face the fact that you work and have a job, but I don't. If I could call this one thing I'd say it's an empty situationship. I almost caught myself on the verge of tears, it's hurts me that you don't care but yet without me you can't do much and vice versa! I hate ignorance and the person who's loud about it. I'm young and pregnant just keeping hope that I can still follow a dream as I was before without all the mishaps and errors. I remember you saying out of anger, "Getting you pregnant was the most stupid thing I've ever done! You're not a woman." I mean we all get mad and say things we "don't mean" but know that it's all the truth because that's the issue on your heart. I think it's time to cut strings and let a lot of things go, because I can't do this anymore. Will I even make a good mother? I ask this, because you make me feel like I have nothing worth giving. I'm not where I used to be and I admit I fell off, but why even date me or claim you want a life/partnership with me when it's clear that it's not what you want anymore. As you said, "Nothing is the same anymore." I agree, I rushed a situation and ended up paying for something that I know I'm going to be raising alone. I still feel empty with you and your heartfelt hidden remarks.....
You ever sit down with a few business folk, and just discuss a few ideas and plans of action? Well, today that's what I did for approximately 4.5 hours and I'm pleased with the results I've gotten. Right now I'm working on a project (script/ t.v. show) that is beyond this world. I sat down with the producer who will also be assisting me in writing it. I don't want to give out too much information, but there are a few details here and there that I can splurge on. I'm pleased to be doing this project with such an awesome person. He had a few laughs, because I came in with a clipboard and some paper (The old fashioned way). You can put a bet on it that we used every piece of those papers that I came into the meeting with. If you like Marvels this is something you can relate the show too, kinda of like boy meets girl. Are we getting a new superhero? Hmm.....
I can reveal the name of the show, and tell you what it's about. Also, everything has been copyrighted this afternoon so dare to steal an idea if you want! Watch out for lawsuits...
Brief Synopsis: Mandark is a slave who holds many attributes to his name. As someone who is an immortal and can never die, he holds power that no one has. Ordered to find Mandark and kill him, Mulan refuses after she catches a "slick" eye for him and is caught falling in love. While on the mission to create another immortal like himself, this highly trained assassin women who is mortal takes sides with the powerful Mandark. As an The Order Of Lotus Group is after him also, this powerful figure threatens to take their strongest woman from Hong Kong trained to kill and turn her immortal to help him against The Order Of Lotus Group. Or so Mandark thought...
Episode Lengths: 30 minutes
Have you ever awaken in the morning, and just felt very peaceful? No stress, No noise, No distractions? Well this morning that's how I feel. I'm supposed to be visiting a museum with my fiancé, and maybe I can share a few things about it when I get back. I'm more of a zoo kind of kid, but I'll be alright. We're going to the Orlando Museum of Art, so I'll be back with some cool stuff to share!
As many of you may know, I'm working on a project (memoir) based around myself. Today, I was assigned by my professor to look over a few of my classmates work and see if they had a clear and solid story concept. Some of them did, but there was one assignment for this STORY BIBLE OUTLINE (13-23 pages) that one student had done. He did NOT put any effort into his outline by giving detail or anything. How can you write a good story when everything is so general? I wanted detail and information but I didn't get that. I felt kind of bad when I was grading it, but it felt even worse that the characters were half developed. The character is just as important as the story, if you lack one thing then it all falls apart (like the domino effect). I wasn't sure if I wanted to say his project/outline was a waste of time, because it has no detail or imagery for me to go off of. There is only one student in my class, whose paper I looked over that blew me away...it had me smiling from ear to ear! That's what a story and the characters should do to you; make you have some type of emotionally reaction to it! Everyone wanted to be a writer, but not everyone is called! WOW!
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I was just sitting here listening to a bit of John Legend and working on Chapter Two of my memoir. I've carefully thought about how I'm going to attack this thing. I want to be hands on with it and give enough emotion and understanding, but in Chapter Two (2) I speak about the day that my mother and father got married. It was a special day to remember from September 9th, 2000. This was also the day that my father was born. Everyone was there and I enjoyed myself....I was only twelve! I was explaining that when a bride and groom take their vows, it's not only for them but the family itself. We all marry into a family and exchange these vows before God in exchange for his promises (his word). It's a powerful thing that at a young age many of us are able to comprehend things/situations that are bigger than us, but we learn and we live! Vows are taken seriously and a vow and covenant is made. Live up to whatever you have to as a family! That's what marriage is purposed for. Don't believe me? Think about it! Momma and poppa weren't the only ones taking vows, but you too! Whether you know it or not!
The song that summarizes Chapter Three
Call me a loser if you want, but everyone goes through a heart break. My first at the age of 16 by a guy that I ended up liking for his outgoing personality. He was a guy that smiled a lot and was always full of laughter, but it sucks when you can still listen to a song and feel the connection between the person and the heartbreak that took place. This is four years later and I can still the broken pieces of myself. Has something similar ever happened to any of you?
This morning I woke up feeling great, made my breakfast and had a nice bottle of water. After my fiancé left out to work, my thoughts started getting the best of me. I'm human just like the rest of you, but sometimes I feel stuck! I could be the most positive person in the world, but I'll always feel a sense of me lacking something. Today, this has a lot to do with chasing dreams and making a living to keep myself alive. Times get hard and sometimes you're going to have to go through a few challenges, but some are just agonizing. I trust in God and I believe when he's ready to move me -He'll do that!