Is anyone else blogging? I have not been due to an art class, but plan to pick back up in the next week or so. Anyone else blogging? Would love to read your blog.
If you're interested, I'm at rashelbell.wordpress.com
Just curious what others' are getting from this experiment? I just spent some time re-reading my previous posts. The missions are great and I enjoy blogging about them, but I have to admit that I am not doing much in between posts - and I think the intent is to be applying the learning.
It was definitely eaiser to create a sett blog than the evernote... although I am thankful for the motivation to create an evernote account and I am hoping to continue to use it for other lists and what-not. That said, this whole process feels like an exercise in letting go...not sure how it's going to work... not sure if I'm going to be able to keep up the commitment (especially since I just joined a Sea Change accountability group that has an expectation of commenting every day)... not sure what I expect to gain! So may unknowns... and yet... very high hopes and expectations!
I think one of the hopes that I have with this forum is that I will have a level of accountability that I do not want to ask of my friends and/or family. I am very aware of not wanting to complain or be a burden on friends and family and yet...there is a part of me that recognizes the value of self expression and venting. I'm hoping that this forum can help me express and work through some of the issues that are coming up around behavior change without taxing or otherwise overburdening my relations.
1. Journal about the biggest problem you'd like to work on in this Beta program. Why is it important to you?
I'd like to work on self acceptance. I am a seeker and am constantly trying to improve. I work in healthcare with a specialty in behavior change. I am constantly trying to change my behavior- add good, delete bad. The issue is that I never seem to be able to appreciate what is currently working. Why is that? It's important to me because I feel like I'd be happier and potentially able to help others more effectively.
2. Relate your thoughts on fear being the root of your problems, to this problem specifically. So if you chose procrastination, write about how procrastination is related to your fears.
I believe this intense need to be better is directly related to fear of not being good enough. If I felt that I was good enough as is, I would not feel such an intense drive to improve. It's fine to learn and grow, but it should not come at the expense of enjoying life.
Oh my goodness... I've had a hard time getting started and am feeling a little confused with the format. Nevertheless... I am starting my unprocrastination assignment #3 by getting caught up on missions! Setting aside time to not procrastinate is extremely gratifying. At the same time, I tend to get hooked into the process and lose track of time. Whether it's organizing a drawer that turns into the whole cabinet, or reading a blog post that turns into every unread email... there's just so much not to procrastinate about! I like the idea of setting a timer for 10 minutes... maybe I'll work with that for a bit.
Ask yourself these three questions:
How did I do?
Well... not so good considering I have completely disengaged in the beta missions. I had some pretty major crisis in my life... both my father in law and my uncle passed within 2 weeks of each other and I was both saddened and overwhelmed with life. I tried to practice self compassion and self care, but both were difficult. I had such a flux of emotion on a regular basis and I found myself attempting to self medicate through various means... no down time/staying up late followed by over sleeping, reading every minute, zoning out in front of the couch, ignoring all healthy habits, etc. Did not keep up with my accountability group and dropped all habits that were not fully engrained.
What impediments were there to the process?
All of the above, plus I'm realizing, I do not have a set weekly check in time to assess how things are going. Even getting off track for a few days, if I had a weekly check in with myself, I would be able to assess the status, see how things were going and adjust accordingly. I do think the largest impediment to progress is lack of consciousness. It's just so easy to self medicate and numb out!
So here’s the mission:
1. Pick one of your problems being held back by fear — for example, writing your thesis, or starting to deal with your debt, or exercise, or dealing with a tough relationship, or putting work into building your business.
My biggest fear keeps me from quitting my amazing job to start an Energy Center, which I believe to be my true calling.
2. Commit to doing small actions of just 2-5 minutes a day on that problem, as part of your unprocrastination session. So for exercise, just go out for a brisk 5-minute walk or jog. For debt, just put your bills in one place and start listing them, then list some more the next day, then pay one of them, then call a creditor to ask for a renegotiation, etc. Tiny actions that you can start without too much trouble.
I guess part of the issue I face with this fear-based obstacle is that I don't exactly know what to do to overcome it. I have fear of failure... fear of not being good enough... fear that I am not capable of running an Energy Center... fear that I will not be able to pull it off. What actions can I start without too much trouble in regards to building confidence around taking the first steps?
Be mindful of your ideals, of your desire to control life, of how uncontrollable life actually is. And journal about it, and how it relates to your fears, procrastination & problems.
Yeah... I am constantly chatting inside my head about how easy it would be if I just xyz... woke up earlier... started every day with a short meditation... walked at lunch every day... organized my to do list consistently... had a consistent reward chart/system for my kids. Seriously, it is rare that I acknowledge what I do every day instead of focusing on what I want to do better!
I am scared to death that I will get to the end of my life and have missed out on my true calling. What the heck does that even mean? Apparently it means anything other than what I am currently doing! Some distant thing... out there... that will forever elude me! It almost seems ridiculous... like staying the same is too scary -so I constantly seek change... but changing is too scary - so I constantly seek comfort of the known. What gives? Which is it? Confusing, right!!!
I really like the idea of setting a timer for 10 minutes at the start of the day and just knocking off as many things in that 10 minutes as I can do. However, despite how great this sounds... and how my intention was to do that every day this week... I have yet to do that this week! Not exactly sure how to enforce that concept as a general practice. Maybe need to hook it to a trigger when I get to work. The thing is, I can't do it when I first get up because the things I want to check off my list have to be done later, when businesses have officially opened for the day. Will work on a good trigger to set the timer for the 10 minutes of non procrastination.
Just testing out the community blog area. Still trying to figure out all the options here. If others are up to it, I'd be interested to hear how you are liking the Zen Beta blog posts... are you keeping up? finding it helpful? have you figured out how to connect with your group? --- All things I'm working on, by the way! Hope your journey is fruitful! ~Rashel