I want to be a poet when I'm older, or a journalist. Anything that involves writing. A lot of people ask why I write, and why I am so into music? I write, because writing is one of my favorite things to do, in some ways I feel like I was just born with it. I've been writing since I was little, except back than, what i wrote didn't make a lot of sense. My mom used to write too, she wanted to be a journalist when she grew up. She wrote love letters to people but never gave the letters to them, I guess that's where I got it from. My mom told me that I remind her just like her when she was a teenager. I love to write, because I'm not good at expressing my words. I'm probably the most awkward person ever...I'm like an awkward hippo. Writing, is so much easier for me to express myself. I don't have to make eye contact with anyone when I'm writing out my feelings. When I write my poems, most of them express things I feel, but since it's a poem, no one really knows they are about me. Some are other peoples scenarios..like suicide, bullying, things like that. As for music, none of you reading this know that I play guitar, piano and I sing, I also listen to music every second of every day..well maybe that is exaggerating a little, but just a little. I listen to old music, rock music, country music, basically all kinds of music. I started playing guitar 2 years ago, and started playing piano three years ago, as for singing, I've been singing my whole life. Music is like my escape from the world. Music describes exactly what I'm feeling most of the time. Singing, is just a passion of mine. Guitar, I love the sound of it. Piano, I feel free when I am playing it. I also love the sound of it as well. Since I sit in my room all day, write, and listen to music, you could say I'm a awkward loser with no social life.....but that'd be an understatement.
Well, as for that boyfriend I wrote about a week ago. We're over, and he is with the other girl. As much as it hurts me, I'm going to try to be the happiest I can be. Now that I know that he can't hurt me anymore, it should take the stress and worries off my back. Thank you so much to Beezy and Kaity McNamara for replying with some great help! If ever I am in a relationship like that again, I will now know what to do, but for now.....No more boys!
My boyfriend has depression and social anxiety, and sometimes I have no clue how to deal with it. He makes mistakes, usually big ones, like today. I know I shouldn't forgive him, but I do, because I love him. So I forgive him, even though I know I'm just gonna get hurt again. I don't what I'm supposed to do, I really don't enjoy crying all the time, but I can't leave him. I feel like I need him, actually I know I need him, because I love him. Help.
~~The Anon Girl
I just now realized that I haven't updated you guys in a month! Time has been passing so fast that I completely forgot! Life for me went from bad to good to bad and back to good again. The first bad, was that silly boyfriend that you all read about. Than I slowly started to get over him, and he came back again, So there is the next bad. He told me he Missed me, and missed everything we did together. He told his girlfriend he would never talk to me again but continued to talk to me, and give me hope. I realized that I had to stop having hope, and had to fully get over him. So I went ahead and blocked him on everything, so I can't have the urge to talk to him. I don't ever want to ruin a relationship between anyone, because I now know how much it hurts, and I don't want to be that other girl. I had a lot of journal entries and letters written to him, and one day something just sparked in me, a lot of anger. So I ripped them all up, and burnt them. It sounds so cliche, like what they do in a movie, but I felt really good after doing it. I felt like I could finally put him in the past. Now it's back to good. I've recently been going to a lot of the Picton Pirates (the hockey team here) games, with one of my very close friends, Morgan, who I'm sure you will be introduced to sometime soon. At the games, this one guy from my class and his friend came and sat with us. The guy from my class is sooooo annoying, and rude, but oh well, he can be funny sometimes. Anyways, his friend is in grade 10, and after going to the games for a while and talking there, we started talking on Facebook. Yeah, not very romantic, talking over Facebook, but. I started to slowly develop feelings for him, and the other day when he said this to me., "Coughcoughcoughcoughcoughcoughilikeyouhfjdgfeubgecough" I thought he was just being stupid and coughing because I didn't see the I like you in it. So that made me very happy. How about you guys? Anything interesting happening in your lifes?
I have just now realized that not a lot of people come to my public library to actually sit here and read books. In the movies, people go to libraries and sit there and read books. In a lot of books this happens too, it's like their escape from the world, that's what reading is for me, and reading in the library, just makes it even more soothing, I mean if there's not a whole bunch of idiots talking to each other, singing, saying they need to go take a shit, and playing Minecraft. I'm pretty sure this is what more than 50% of the teens in my town do. They come downstairs to the teen room, get on a computer and either go on Facebook or Minecraft. Nobody actually reads in the teen room. Right now, I'm actually on a computer here myself, what a hypocrite I am. I was trying to read the third book in a series I'm reading, called Gone. There are 3 boys, and they are being very annoying, they might not realize it, but they are. So I couldn't read, because of how distracting they were being. Therefore, I decided to get on a computer here, and blog about it. Mainly, because I haven't blogged about it in a while, and I find it amusing that not a lot of people come here to actually read. Anyways, there's my pointless blog of the day. Yay for me. Do any of you have opinions on Libraries?
Hello, you should probably know a bit about me, before you start reading my blog. I'm a girl, but I think you can tell that. I live in Canada, on a quite little farm. I'm pretty shy in person, if I don't know you well, and I'm awkward too. You'll be able to learn a lot about me, by my daily blog. Sometimes there will be more than one a day, I guess it just depends on how much goes on in a day. I had a blog before this, but it didn't exactly go anywhere, so I started this one. Instead of writing in my Journal, I decided "why not share my thoughts with the world." Even if this blog doesn't go far, at least I'll be out there with my writing. Basically, this is a blog about my life, there might be some of my poems sometimes. Wanna get to know me? Why not subscribe?
~The Anon Girl
I know most people love Christmas and all, I do too, but some parts of it I don't like as much. For instance when someone tells you they got you something, and you feel like you just have to get them something back, but you don't know what to get them! You would think if your dating someone it would be so easy to figure out something to get them, but it's really not! I should just get him a potato and say some cheesy line about potatoes with it. You guys wanna make me a cheesy potato line? Another thing is, when you see all the presents under your tree before it's actually Christmas day, and you have the humongous urge to open them! Anyone else have that? Luckily, my parents have started to not put the presents under the tree until Christmas Eve! Well there's my little rant about Christmas, wanna tell me what you think of it?
~The Anon Girl
The title was obviously supposed to seem sarcastic, but I'm actually so glad that school starts again tomorrow. That means that choir starts too, and all my other activites. Doing all these stuff, and not sitting alone in my room all day, should help me. I'll be around some of the people who make me laugh, and I'll be around all my friends to help me get my mind of stuff. Of course there's gonna be those kids at school, who sometimes you just wanna put a book in their mouth so they will be quiet, but I mean other than those people it's alright. I've gotta stop thinking off all the negative things, and start thinking about the positives, I'm never going to get over this if I don't. I've gotta start getting out more too, sitting in my room alone, listening to music isn't gonna help anything! Let's hope the first day back tomorrow, goes well, if not....well uh oh.
I don't understand people! Someone I know, attempted suicide today. Yes, it was a terrible thing, but the peoples reactions did not help anything! They were all saying that the people who bullied her should go to hell, and that they were going to beat them up and put them in the hospital! She bullies people too, I hate the fact that she tried to take her life, but the truth is she does bully people too, constantly. People think bullying is when you say something rude to someone....that is not the definition! Bullying has to be a constant thing, and they keep doing it over and over again! If people start saying stuff to the people that bullied her, than what if they ended up trying to take their life? And than people did that to the next people that bullied that person, it would just start a chain. I believe that no one deserves to go to hell, some people deserve to be punished for what they have done, but not to go to hell.They don't understand that being rude to the people that were rude to her is not going to help anything! It's just going to make things worse! I don't understand humans sometimes. Whenever I speak up, people tend to say that I'm wrong, and than they start to think that I'm saying these things because I was the bully. Is it wrong to have my own opinion? I would love to hear your opinions on this! So please comment and tell me what you think of situations like this.
Wow life is great! I've started to realize, that even though sometimes I get hurt, sad, or angry, I still have my whole life ahead of me! I've taken a chance on that guy that I said liked me! I honestly couldn't be happier! I've also realized that even when I think life has gotten to its worst point for me, it does get better! What I thought was terrible, really isn't so terrible compared to other people!