Breastfeeding selfies; I don't have many of them. I should because I'm a big breastfeeding supporter, love to talk about it, and love to photograph it. There are very few times when I don't have a device handy while nursing either. So how why don't I have more of these? Well, the answer to that has changed over time.
When it was just Chase and I, I was very shy. When I breastfed Chase, I couldn't look him in the eye. It was too intimate for me. Back then, I was a very reserved person. Sharing feelings or talking candidly about my thoughts didn't come easily. My shyness affected so many aspects of my life. Work, my friendships, my marriage, and the relationship with my child. I remember those early days. Having a baby was so new and confusing. I didn't know how to feel. Or how to act. Kissing Chase felt strange and awkward. The pictures you see now of me gazing at my nurslings while breastfeeding, it was a slow progression.
I was scared of breastfeeding in public. Most times I tried to nurse a bunch before we left the house, or I'd feed in the car. When we were out, I'd use a cover - or try to anyway. The few times I did nurse Chase in public, I would get cold sweats from the fear of being confronted. It never happened. Or at least by the times it did happen, I was much more comfortable and the only responses I've ever gotten were positive. A waitress even stopped my husband on our way out of a pizza place to tell him how awesome it was that I breastfeed. That was cool.
So I don't have many breastfeeding selfies. At first, because I was extremely shy and not very confident. That has slowly morphed into not having many opportunities to take selfies. With three kids, multitasking is the norm and being able to take a selfie is usually not part of the activies. But anyway, it's almost Thanksgiving and this is sounding way more sad than I wanted it to be. Ah well. Can't always predict where a post will go but I'll leave you with this. Three breastfeeding selfies of Chloe from the day she was born to a couple of days ago. They are grainy, not properly focused, and not the best framed shots. But hey, they are are few rare selfies that I am thankful for.