“Somewhere in the vaults of the bank of Cox & Co., at Charing Cross, there is a travel-worn and battered tin dispatch-box with my name, John H. Watson, M.D., Late Indian Army, painted upon the lid. It is crammed with papers, nearly all of which are records of cases to illustrate the curious problems which Mr. Sherlock Holmes had at various times to examine...”
--The Problem of Thor Bridge (Sir Arthur Conan Doyle)
When I was in high school, we read the "Speckled Band" in class. I don't remember it much. Other than that, my impressions of Holmes and Watson have been the usual cultural constants of deerstalker cap, meerschaum pipe, late middle aged proper Victorians. Hounds and speckled bands and Bohemian scandals. That's about it.
My grandfather, who was a professor of biology, loved Sherlock Holmes. He was a member of the Baker Street Irregulars for over 40 years, he had this leather bound set that I remember from my grandparents' house in New Orleans. My grandfather died when I was in middle school, and because he was in New Orleans and I was in Colorado, I wouldn't say I knew him well. I know these things: his name was Dr. Walter G. Moore. He always read the newspaper, cover to cover, in the morning, reacting to the stories with quiet exclamations like "Oh, mercy," and "Hoo hah!" (I've never heard anyone else say "Hooha!", but it was a general all-purpose exclamation of surprise or dismay.) He didn't talk much. I don't remember us ever having a drawn out conversation. But I used to sit at his feet and play with toys while he read a book or the paper, in perfect co-existence with each other. He was a gentle soul. He loved all six of his children and treated them with respect (evidenced, I think, by the fact that all of his children turned around and treated all of their own children with love and respect that, as I grow older, I realize I'm lucky to have received). He was handy around the house. He loved dogs and jazz music. He loved my grandmother.
My family lucked out in the aftermath of Katrina. We lost no family members. By far the biggest blow was the loss of my grandparents' house and the 65 years worth of family history embedded there. It took my aunts and uncles several months to go through all the refuse, pulling out what they could to salvage, and when they were done, the remnants of my grandparents' lives together could fit into a 10'x10' storage unit. For my grandmother's 90th birthday, we all gathered in New Orleans, and one of the things we did was split up all the stuff (my grandmother didn't want the vast majority of it, or thought it was time to let it go. She's been living with one of my aunts since the storm). Except for the big double bed, none of it was monetarily valuable. (And as an aside, I have to say: the fact that six kids, 14 grandkids, and an assortment of in-laws split up what amounts to an inheritance with not a single squabble is, I think, a tribute to the kind of parents my grandparents were.)
Things I got: A couple of the specimen bottles my grandfather used to use to collect water samples from the bayous. One of my grandmother's window ornaments. The cuckoo clock. And about twenty years' worth of The Baker Street Journals, which is a quarterly newsletter devoted to all things Sherlock.
Sherlock fans are notoriously obsessive. Entire books have been written trying to figure out what order the stories in the canon go in, and how many wives Watson had. Trying to uncover details of cases that Watson never wrote about. Holmes vs. Jack the Ripper. Holmes and Irene Adler. Floor plans of the Baker Street rooms. And on and on and on. One hundred years hasn't exhausted their need to know more, hasn't filled in all the gaps. I think Holmes appealed to my grandfather's precise, scientific mind. Almost a year ago, I also received some money from the sale of my grandmother's house--she sold it to the Road Home Initiative and split the money up amongst her children and grandchildren. I was going to use it to go to Europe, something I've wanted to do for awhile. Instead, I was stupid, and ended up having to use it to pay off credit cards. Which is such a waste and disrespect of what my grandmother gave to me, and I'm fucking ashamed of myself for it. Thankfully, I do better with literary inheritances.
But in order to appreciate these quarterly journals, I have to be conversant in the stories. So I started reading the stories, and discovered that I knew Holmes pretty well, but I didn't know Watson at all. And as I read them over and over, paradoxically, Watson is the reason I read them. Not Holmes. As I think about it now, I think Watson has a lot in common with my grandfather.
I read Holmes because it is, in a very real way, my grandfather's legacy to me. It may be the only thing I share with him. Reading these stories connects me not only to Victorian England, but to mid-century New Orleans, and a smart, quiet man living his life the best way he knew how.
Somewhere in the vaults of the bank Cox & Co., at Charing Cross, there is a travel-worn and battered tin dispatch box. This battered tin dispatch box is one of the more enduring pieces of Holmesian folklore, and many Holmes pastiches or fan fic purport to have been found in the mythical tin box.
I received my inheritance out of the wreckage of a wooden house, in the wake of realizing just how fragile and temporary our lives and possessions are. To see 65 years of your family's history blown apart like it that is incredibly jarring. You stare at it, and stare at it, and still it makes no earthly sense. For me, to think that somewhere there is a battered tin dispatch box, waiting patiently, containing all this history...it's like having an anchor to hold on to that keeps the chaos at bay. To think that somewhere there's a little pocket of time that I can slip through and find Holmes and Watson smoking pipes and putting their feet up by the fire...who wouldn't want that? Who wouldn't want to feel like these things can last forever?
It's fiction, of course. Of all the millions and millions of dinosaurs, we only have a few hundred skeletons left to tell us that they ruled the earth. Of the many billions of humans who have walked the earth, we know details of a far few. Not even a fraction of 1%--most people live and die and are entirely forgotten within two or three generations. And so many of those we only have by accident--we wouldn't know anything of Plato or Aristotle if their libraries hadn't been looted by the Romans, brought back to Rome, and somehow found their way into the possession of (I think) Cicero, who read the books and was so taken by them that he started writing about them himself and getting other people interested. The Gospel of Q was discovered in an ancient Egyptian trash heap. The Dead Sea Scrolls were forgotten in clay pots in a cave. How many ancient works of wisdom were burned for fuel? How many secrets were lost because the people who knew them were murdered, or just didn't have kids to pass them on to? How many sunk to the bottom of the ocean, or decayed? How many were eaten by hurricanes? Humankind has forgotten far more than we can ever comprehend. And yet we tell ourselves that we can know all there is to know about the past, if we just keep looking.
What would an archeologist conclude about my family, digging through that 10x10 storage unit?
Arthur Conan Doyle is aware of the transiency of life, of course. One of Watson's unwritten cases concerns "the strange case of James Phillimore, who, stepping back into his own house to get his umbrella, was never more seen in this world." But in Holmes, everything leaves a trace, everything has a reason, and if only you can both see and observe you can puzzle it out. Chaos has no place in Holmes. Giant fuck-off storms that destroy entire swaths of landscape and lives have no place. Not even Jack the Ripper has a place in Holmes, and he actually existed. The history of humanity is that of a species that spends enormous amounts of energy fighting off the encroaching chaos with all that they can, and in Holmes, the fight has been won. Holmes survived Hurricane Katrina when most of the rest of my grandparent's house died. How can I not hold on to all of that, with all that I can? What else can I learn from my grandfather's inheritance?
So, other than my generally obsessive personality, I think that's why Holmes has such pull for me, why I'm so defensive of him. He's what my grandfather left me. More than God, Holmes convinces me that everything in the world happens for a reason, and that chaos is not chaos, but merely our inability to perceive pattern.
I hope he's right.
Ever since Columbine (I was 17, at a Littleton high school, though not that Littleton high school), I've had trouble dealing with mass-murder type news stories. Which is only natural I suppose. Just like since Katrina, I've had trouble with natural disasters. I have dishonored the victims of the earthquake in Japan, hurricanes in New York, floods in south Asia, and shooting victims in Ft. Hood, Virginia Tech, and elsewhere by simply not being able to dredge up the depth of emotion that tragedies of that scale require. On some level, I feel like this makes me a bad person, but on another I don't stress about it because it's obvious, even to me, that my level of reaction is out of my control. I promise you there's only so many times you can look at a weather radar map and burst into tears before you have no tears left. And Columbine grated on my soul--over the whole community's soul--for a year or more. It faded from the national spotlight relatively quickly, but it was a constant presence in Littleton for a long time, and it wore me away. When Sept. 11th happened, and everyone was freaking out about how we weren't safe anymore, my reaction was more or less, "Well, of course not. You're just learning this now?"
Sometimes forcibly not paying attention is my only source of protection. So I understand that this is a delayed reaction of sorts, especially given our high-speed high-def instant-access world. But this is kids. Twenty kids. You can't not pay attention to that.
Who wasn't paying attention when Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold were asking their friends to buy them guns at gun shows? Who wasn't watching when they drove into the Colorado foothills for target practice?
Who didn't notice when Jared Lee Loughner started talking to himself, rambling incoherently, laughing at inappropriate times?
Who saw James Holmes booby trap his apartment and order 6,000 rounds of ammunition, and thought nothing of it?
I finally arrived at the Manchester, New Hampshire airport around nine at night. We fly in there because it takes less time to get to my grandparents house in a Boston suburb from Manchester than it does from the Boston airport. Traffic and all that.
We were supposed to get there at five, but there was so much snow in Manchester that we had to divert to Boston, wait for the snow to pass, and then return to Manchester.
I actually like the delay, though. I love everything about traveling, including being stuck on a plane doing nothing. There's something very pleasant about being totally isolated from the rest of the world.