First off, I'm really sorry for bothering all of you like this.
Well, I wrote back to my ex last night (finally.) I basically said that he is a great guy, I don't regret what we were, but we made a whole lot of mistakes (in slightly more words.)
He wrote back.
I didn't read it until now. I was super afraid of what he was going to say.
He asked me back. He made this grandiose statement of how I'm the one he truly loves and how basically I'm his "the one."
. . . He told me I didn't have to answer right away and that he'll wait for me, but I don't even know what to say. I feel like this is one of those noble statements guys always make in romantic movies and this has to be fake or he was drunk when he wrote it, but what if he's not and what if I say "no way, Jose" and I end up walking away from the one? What if he DID change and what if he IS sincere and I keep thinking the worse and I turn him down?
I wish I could see about 6 months into the future and see where we are.