Since I have the day off from work, and Princess doesn't have any school, we decided that we would mo together.

As always, if you feel like donating to research for men's health issues, you can do so through my Movember site. Thank you and Happy Veteran's Day!

“The trouble with the rat race is that even if you win, you're still a rat.” Lily Tomlin

We’re tired.

We signed up for a race, but we can’t seem to find the finish line. However, when we’re fresh out of college, we can picture it at least...

LEARN TO BE HAPPY WITH LESS (Minimalism)

Dear friends and family,

I'm sorry that I didn't tell you about my reality sooner, I just couldn't find the right time or place to tell you any of this. I'm sorry that I built up my walls and kept you on the outside of my life for a while, I just didn't know how to tell you. The truth is, I've been struggling for a while now and I don't know myself how to explain my situation. You all know that my knee's and my wrists have been in pain. What you don't know, however, is that I really do know what is going on with my body. I've known for a few months now. I was diagnosed with Juvenile Rheumatoid Arthritis. It's hard, I will admit, mornings especially, but let's not get into too much detail. See, at first I really didn't know what was happening to me, I thought that maybe I'd just caused some stress on my joints or damaged the ligaments in my wrists. When we found out that it was JRA, my previous situation offered for a perfect cover story. When I was first diagnosed I was a little ashamed to be completely honest, don't ask why because I don't even know myself. I've finally convinced myself to open up about my disease. Now my classmates will understand why I missed so many days of school, sometimes the pain of JRA just gets to you and I couldn't make it most days. To my family members, I'm truly sorry for keeping this from you all. And to my best friends, I'm sorry to have kept this from you the most. The truth is that I'm going to have a hard time with a lot of things from here on out, and I'm going to ask for help once and a while when I need it. I hope you all understand why I kept this on the down low for a long time and I honestly kind of regret not saying anything.

Thank you for reading this post.

-M

If you have any questions please feel free to ask, I'll answer everything to the best of my ability.

This is a post I've been wanting to write since I started this blog, so buckle your seatbelts, it's a doozy.

I'm a Software Engineer by trade. I never completed college(or even got close). In fact, I've never had a computer class in my life. I learned at a young age that traditional schooling just wasn't for me. I'd spend all of my free time teaching myself things at home, or outright skipping school and hitting the library for the day where I'd read things from art theory all the way to classical mechanics. At the time I wanted to be an artist. I found myself doodling in class constantly, and the tests I turned in were covered with my artwork. Some of my teachers loved that, but most didn't. I was indifferent.

At the time I had an account on an online art community: sheezyart.com. SArt was an awesome place at the time, and had a great, thriving community of amateur animators. Everyone was very supportive of each other, and it was a great environment to improve yourself. Though, sometime in 2008 things started to noticeably go downhill. The moderatorship became corrupt, and because it wasn't a commercial venture, the owner had no real incintive to fix things. In fact, he'd all but left the community entirely, letting the leftover moderators battle amongst themselves. Bugs accumulated in the codebase, really good users were banned for ludicrous reasons, and the community started to fall apart.

When I was fourteen I was enamored with two things: animation and building an animation community. I browsed the Newgrounds programming board constantly, sapping up as much good information as I could. I wanted to make the next newgrounds.com. Little did I know, this teenage fascination would turn out to be the most important thing I could've done with my life at that time.

Dear Reader,

Between not speaking English, living in West Point, MS, and operating a restaurant, there's just not much time or opportunity for my dad to make friends. The few friends my dad has usually come from something work related or from hanging out at the casino (I guess gambling and work are two things that overcome language barriers). One of my dad's friends, Gunn as we call him, ate at the restaurant today. Gunn drinks water with "a lot of lemons" and always sits at the big table at the back, and my dad usually sits with him, drinking coffee, reading a newspaper, and shooting the shit with Gunn.

I don't know how Gunn follows what Dad is saying. As far as I know Gunn only speaks English, while my dad usually has to communicate using some blend of English, Spanish, Chinese, and charades. Dad doesn't even use the right words to describe the right things, but Gunn knows what he's saying nonetheless. I remember one time my dad saying something about a "lavel" and "lawnmower" and then it turned out they were talking about a busted water pipe... Somehow Gunn understood, even though I had no idea.

I don't even really know how these two met, but I remember Gunn ever since I can remember. He's always been around since I was a wee-baby. I remember playing hide-n-go-seek in the restaurant after closing hours. Gunn was "it". He found me and chased me until I was out of breath, giggling as little kids do until tears were rolling down my cheeks. He was also there when we lived in a "shack" behind the restaurant. I still see the pictures Mom took all those years ago, with me and my brother standing around Dad, barbecuing on a broken grill, and I think Gunn is somewhere in there. I always remember him playing games with us. If it wasn't hide-n-go-seek, then we'd be playing basketball with a flat ball on a net-less goal that still hangs behind the restaurant (though the shack is gone and the goal is in a different spot). He was even there to help us build our current house out in the country.

Feeling humbled, honored, and more than a little scared about this trip to Nepal, working with Gloria Simoneaux and Harambee Arts. 12 women from around the world will meet in Kathmandu to work with Gloria and her volunteers to help and support the training of 7 women who will in turn provide Expressive Arts Healing to groups of survivors of human trafficking.

Just completed the audiobook "Sold", that Gloria suggested I read prior to the trip. I could only listen to small bits at a time - it was quite intense for me. One woman's story, a life so different from anything I could imagine. Doing my best to listen and hold without blame or judgment.

Deep Breaths...

Final stages of packing, taking very little for me, filling my bag up with items for the groups - small pads of paper, pens, items to make plastic jewelry...

19 hour trip to Singapore, 6 hour trip on to Kathmandu. Other side of the world, other side of my head, same side of my heart.

And I'm back!

Sorry about the delay, I've been away for a bit but now I'm throwing myself back into this little project, which is of course my attempt to learn how to draw.

In a nutshell I have a picture of myself which I am going to draw again and again until I get it right!

So here's how I did in my second attempt!

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I love lists. I really do. The seventeen cutest dogs of all time? Yes please. The ten best magazine covers of the year? I’m clicking the shit out of that.

That being said, I recognize that these lists are not that intellectually nourishing (sorry Buzzfeed!). They create the illusion of objective order where objective order does not exist. In short, they are not useful.

The annual US News and World Report college ranking guide is not useful. It has not ever been useful, and I doubt it ever will be. In trying to achieve a holistic formula for ranking, it ends up obfuscating rather than enlightening. What does it mean that Rice is ranked two spots higher than Emory? I have no idea. No one does.

Anyway, if you want the cheat sheet for why these lists are a negative force in the world of higher education, click here to read this excellent takedown by The Atlantic’s John Tierny: http://www.theatlantic.com/education/archive/2013/09/your-annual-reminder-to-ignore-the-em-us-news-world-report-em-college-rankings/279103/.

Malcolm Gladwell provides a more in-depth critique: http://www.newyorker.com/reporting/2011/02/14/110214fa_fact_gladwell

I remember not hating my job (and my life), but not exactly enjoying it.

I remember reading Linchpin by Seth Godin.

I remember that morning in the gym, when I said, That’s it. I’m done. I quit.

These are my highlights (highlights, meaning I did NOT write these) from Linchpin.

This is how Seth Godin made me quit my job. Don’t read it if you don’t want to quit yours.