I have certain habits of behavior and ways of functioning that I would like to eradicate. Don't get me wrong, there are lots of great things about me--I am empathetic, hardworking, flexible and really, really tolerant. But, man, I have some habits I would like to change.
Today's zenhabits was all about changing habits and it is very timely. The new habits that I started the year with--sleeping earlier, eating fruits and veg, and doing yoga daily--are all suffering. I haven't done yoga in three days. My eating continues to be better, but my sleeping is worse. Why am I failing at changing these things?
When I read the post, a few things stuck out for me. I have had disruptions--a cold, some early work days, etc. My triggers were disrupted. I maybe tried to take too much stuff on at once. And it has been a while since I have thought about my motivations, which is key to making lasting change. I want to be the healthiest me I can be. I want to be in alignment--strong and flexible with joints that are going to last me into my nineties.
For sleeping, I want to be more efficient with my time so I can devote some energy to my family and my daily fitness practice. So it makes more sense to have more daytime. It is important to me. One of the things that has derailed my yoga is the lack of sleep and tiredness in the morning. Why am I continuing to stay up late? My computer is a crutch for me. I turn it on at night and waste time, scrolling sites. This is a habit that I want to eradicate. The trigger for this bad habit is going to bed. I need to find an alternate way or time to keep in touch with the world. I also need to watch when the urge the turn on my computer comes up, and then let it fade away. It is like my mind begins spinning at 11, so some kind of calming ritual may help me too. Basically I need a new trigger to help me turn out my lights at 11:00 and go to sleep.
Anyhow, I feel quite determined. I know I can't change everything at once, but if I can adjust bedtimes, I think it will open the doors for me.