They will never be what you need.
You can try again and again, but it will never be the same. The memory of how you once looked at them is gone..
The ideals we put into our heads of what we want to see, what we think we see, and what is really there is often so deceiving.
They make you question your perceptions of the closest you love around you.
But the real truth about everything is,
Anyone is capable of anything.
And that reality is terrifying for 2 reasons.
Do you really know someone as well as you think you do?
Do you know yourself like you think you do?
People show what they want to show.
I cannot be naive anymore because I become to open, people can read me too clearly because I cannot portray anything other than myself.
So i become closed, quiet, observant, a thinking individual.
But do I think this way because I want to, because I believe it...
My mind has changed because of these experiences.
Maybe you, him, her, they...
Maybe my questioning of people comes from a distrust they have caused me in the past.
But I would like to be sure of myself, like to know what I really think of people.
Are people naturally good, or are they not to be trusted?
I had thought I knew what I believed.
I thought I had let go.
Theres more to let go.