To my ex love. Did you make me or break me? I always wonder/feel like he has ruined my heart and a part of me permanently. It wasn't until watching a television show today where wives talked about life after finding out of their husband's infidelity. The things they said resonated with me so heavily it made me realize why he has altered my heart.
Even though it wasn't even 3 years that we were together, even though we were only boyfriend and girlfriend, I feel as though I had taken the role of married life. I had loved and trusted someone so full heartedly that I took on that role without that official title. He was there for I would say one of the most crucial times of my life/age. He raised me in a sense. The way I am today is largely due to how he made me. He taught me to grow up.
I was listening to Jay Z's 444 album today, and his song where he confesses an apology of his infidelity to Beyonce strikes me deeply.
He describes how he watched her grow into a woman, and saw the innocence leave her eyes.
Thats exactly how I feel.