There's nothing more awkward (and sometimes painful) than an "uneven" friendship or unrequited love. Honest, I feel for people deeply and if I am drawn to someone, I tend to come on pretty strong. It's the worst feeling in the world when my loving enthusiasm for someone actually puts them off. The thing is, I know I've done the same to others. It's just awkward, and hard to reconcile. What are you supposed to do when you just don't match up?
Jesus and Peter have a really awkward conversation over a breakfast of bread and broiled fish. Jesus asks Peter if he loves him three times, and Peter tells him three times that he does. The reason why this conversation is awkward isn't because of how many times Jesus asks, but rather the love that Jesus talks about initially isn't the love that Peter has to give Jesus. The two loves are:
So, to give perspective to the conversation:
On A Day In The Knowledge from Above
I just read some articles about the shooting that happened in California. It truly breaks my heart to read that. My heart goes out to the families of the victims and the victims themselves but also the family of the suspect and the suspect himself. What breaks my heart the most, though, is that there are so many people who feel this loneliness that the suspect felt. He felt rejected and lonely. Hopeless. And there are so many people who live with this hopelessness everyday. And I thought about how, once, a long time ago, I felt this way, but I no longer feel that. I'm not writing this to boast about the hope I feel, but I write this to tell those of you out there who feel hopeless that there IS HOPE. There IS someone who loves you soooo much, whose heart is broken every time you feel sad, who feels your pain as if it was his. This hope is through Jesus Christ. He died on the cross for you, taking away that pain and hopelessness. It doesn't mean you won't go through troubling times but it means that you won't be alone through this, that "by his wounds you have been healed" (1 Peter 2:24) for He "took up our pain and bore our suffering" (Isaiah 53:4).
Something the suspect said was that he felt rejected by all these girls who never paid attention to him. And it's human for us to feel left out by some group because we are human. However, if you trust and love the Lord "with with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength", you'll find that those things are of less importance and you'll feel the love He has for you.
"As Jesus approached Jericho, a blind man was sitting by the roadside begging. When he heard the crowd going by, he asked what was happening. They told him, "Jesus of Nazareth is passing by." He called out, "Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me!" Those who led the way rebuked him and told him to be quiet, but he shouted all the more, "Son of David, have mercy on me!" Jesus stopped and ordered the man to be brought to him. When he came near, Jesus asked him, "What do you want me to do for you?" "Lord, I want to see," he replied. Jesus said to him, "Receive your sight; your faith has healed you." Immediately he received his sight and followed Jesus, praising God. When all the people saw it, they also praised God." -Luke 18:35-43
P.S. I love this verse because it evokes the mercy and hope there is through Jesus Christ. He will heal you, just like he healed this blind man.
"God chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not..." 1 Corinthians 1:28