I developed a fascination for gambling when my friend first took me to a casino at the age of 23. I tried my hands at poker and ended up losing 3 months of wages. At that point, though I knew was in trouble, I did not realize the severity of what I was getting into. It took me a while to figure out that I was a gambling addict and it ruined my marriage and my finances. Every day I had to fight the urge to stay away from the table and the moment you lose, all you want to do is keep playing to win back every dime you lost. This only pushed me deeper into debt until one day I pawned even my house on a high stakes game. I lost everything that night and that was the last time I ever gambled. It’s been 5 years and I have been working diligently to get my life back
On becoming kelsea
I'd like to think that that everyone gets lost when they go to college. But sometimes I'm just not sure.
People seem to fit in better, like they had a slight bump in the road but overcame it very easily. Most people know what they're doing and what classes they should take to fulfill their lifelong dreams to become a lawyer or a doctor or an engineer.
But I'm just not sure. I don't know why I'm in college. I have no career goal or dream job. I'm really not even sure who I am at this point. I've started to question what I like and dislike and why I do they things I do, which, I mean, college is kinda for in a sense I guess. But I just don't know.
Before I become a college student, an adult, a member of society, I'd just rather become Kelsea.