As I mentioned before, I am a student at UC Berkeley. I am truly grateful for the privilege of learning at the best public university in the nation. Yet, sometimes I can't help but feel that I don't want to be here anymore.
Aside from the wicked smart people here and the competitiveness, I don't want to be here because I don't really handle stress well and question if I could really thrive here. I wish it was still winter break right now because I desperately want to be in the safety and comfort of my family. Have you ever felt this way?
But, instead of turning this post into some depressing vent about all that I have to do and complaining about all the anxiety, I'm going to list five things that have made me happy this week.
- Project SMILE Retreat. (Project Spreading Multiculturalism and Inspiring Leadership through Education). It is a one-on-one mentoring organization that I am a part of. We went on a retreat last weekend to Yosemite, and it was really great to bond with the rest of the board members and have fun.
Here's a picture:
When I am feeling anxious, I can count on one of my former teachers to talk me through it. There's a comforting feeling to have that kind of support. Even though she's in Los Angeles and I'm here, we were able to talk over the phone for an hour and half.
Cal Band!! I LOVE Cal Band!! Even though Berkeley's football team is not that great, Cal Band does not disappoint. They were playing in Sproul today, and it was a fun experience. Our dance team and cheer squad were there too.
I started work again. I have 2 work study jobs, and even though that may seem like a lot, I really enjoy the people I work with. So, it was nice to see everyone again and have conversations with them. Everyone is friendly and welcoming. Plus, there's free coffee in the morning!
"Dark Horse" by Katy Perry feat. Juicy J. This may seem strange, but I've really grown to love this song. It took about 3 hours to drive to the Yosemite, so music was always playing in the car. It was definitely the song of the weekend. :)
Here is a link to a video, so you could enjoy it too! :
There was a time when we were singing and dancing to this in the car. Board bonding! :D
And that's five!!
I'm going to try to list some things that make me happy more often. I realize that I tend to focus on the negative things that happen that I don't appreciate that good things are happening too. Sometimes it's good to take a step back and take a breather from all the stresses of the day. Maybe that's something we all can do? Look at the glass half full.
Or, ... look at it full: half in a gaseous state and half in a liquid state (Chemistry joke...).
Alright, now I should get back to work.
Over and out.