My birthday is coming up. Every year since I started working, I've set aside a large(ish) amount to spoil myself. However, this year things have changed up a bit.
I have more responsibilities and commitments financially. I'm finally saving up for a long trip abroad. So with all these concerns in mind, I'm really tempted to just drop this tradition and save the money knowing I'll need it for other things.
Then I realized, you really just have to treat yourself once in awhile. Nobody is going to do it for you, unless you're very very lucky but even then, no one will really know what random luxury item you'll want.
So, once in a while, stop punishing yourself, stop tightening the belt and just let it all hang loose. Find what makes you happy and go do it. I admit that you can't buy happiness. So this year I'll be buying something that will (hopefully) enrich my experiences with my friends.
On The Life Of An Ordinary Teenager
So sorry for my absence. My life has been so hard and exhausting lately. Prepare for a long post cause this is gonna be a huge one! I have had exams all day, everyday. I've had to study every single night of the week and between taking a shower, eating and maybe getting a few minutes to relax, i haven't had the time to write. I miss it. This is like my diary and not being able to write in it, makes me feel restricted.
A lot has happened in the last 3-4 days. With the girls for instance. Me and Jordan have exchanged certain funny faces. Yesterday ( Wednesday ), we had a social studies exam in the afternoon. We had 30 minutes to read, study, draw or whatever. I decided to draw what was on my pencil case. On my pencil case, there is a mascara, lipstick and it says " lips and eyes ". I drew it and when i finished my exam 30 minutes early, i wrote " Makeup buddy forever, have a nice summer!". I then gave it to Isabella. Me and Emiline talked on facebook and it was cool. I had posted so many random videos on instagram that night, she actually complimented me on them and said i was funny. I finally made peace with the girls and now were friends. I met new people and am having so much fun with them.
Finn and i are friends. I don't have a crush on him anymore because, i know how to stop. I just need to put something more important then my feelings in front of love and i'm over it the next day. I still want to be his friend and we might even hang out this summer. Wednesday, at lunchtime, i walked around with my friend named Vick. He took me to the nerd hangout at school and it's called the subway. It's basically a place where nerds eat lunch and play games. There's pool, air hockey, foosball and some other game. I learned how to play pool and turned out to be really good at it! Vick wasn't very good when he started but i thought he was damn talented! Ever since i left the girls, I've made more friends, played sports, laughed and enjoyed myself in a new and different way. Maybe an even better way.
I have one day left of school and i can't wait for summer! I am planning on trying to eliminate some weight and go to Florida. Did i mention i was born in Florida? Well i am. School has been exhausting this past week. The worst day was Tuesday. I had a math and science exam. I hate science and math. For some unknown reason, i don't get why i should be learning all this crap. Teach me how to add and multiply but the rest, i don't care. I don't really have a choice though. I have to learn this shit to get a diploma. School has become so pressuring and fake. It used to be a privilege to go to school and now all we want to do, is get away from it. Today, i had no school and i went to see my math tutor. We laughed while we were waiting for my mom. We talked about summer and how my parents annoy me. I need to get away. That's why i can't wait to go visit my family.
Tomorrow, i have a math exam and an English one. I wish i could miss the English one but i have to do it. I'm bilingual so, it should take me no time. I've been alone a couple times ever since the girls. I don't always have to be with someone. Being alone isn't a bad thing, it's a choice. When you ask for something in life, if you promise something in return, it'll happen. One night when me and the girls were still fighting, i asked to get the answer. To find friends and find myself in the right place. The next day, Finn came to see me and i found my spot. Today, i was suppose to do something with my friend John but, i don't think it'll happen.